When I lie down on my bed, I evaluate my day, what went wrong and what went well. First, I go through all my actions which need to be improved. While remembering my faults, I try to stay on my core self. I will not repeat those mistakes the next day. Then, I remember the actions and behaviors that I performed today by which I took care of myself, and respected others and the earth. I get courage and happiness from this and sleep well.
When I make a mistake or fail, I just say it “Yea! I made a mistake!!” so that I do not feel sad or guilty. Immediately, it connects with my core self. Mistakes give me an opportunity to express for myself the happiness of the present moment.
I am happy to say that I have a companion to share difficulties, successes and happiness. We meet every three weeks. I am noticing what blocks me for opening up to transforming power, what rigid patterns of habits I have developed. It is clear to me how my rigid patterns affect me and others. Being with, sharing and reflecting with my companion help me to discharge my emotions, ground myself and open up.